It never stays good…

Wow just realized today its been 3 years since Jon and I broke up haha. Anywhore. lol. Um, yah, my luck with relationships, is staying consistent, right when I’m about to get “that loving feeling” some big stupid relationship messing up thing pops up and ruins it. Mike had been being a little weird lately and I’m not stupid, I’ve been in enough relationships to know when guys are having doubts or are confused. But he didn’t want to talk about it so I just had fun with friends and waited for him to come around. Then like Thanksgiving night he sent me a text message at like 130 saying “Can we talk tomorrow?” and that doesn’t fly with me, so I called him right then. And he said that things had been feeling different or something but we would talk the next day. But he was busy the next day when I wasn’t busy, and when he wasn’t busy I was working, so I was like whatever. Then on Monday we finally had a talk. I went over to his house, and we just talked for a while, and he explained to me how in January we will probably break up..because thats when he starts going to college and doing all his fireman stuff and he’s not gonna have any time for me he said, and it would make him feel guilty, and he didn’t want that guilty conscience getting in the way of this dream of his, which I understand, it just kinda sucks. We could’ve just broken up right then, but he said it was my choice, and I chose for us to stay together til January and see how things end up. So thats where I am. And he told me not to call him cause he just needed some time to think about a lot of things he was stressed about, and so I was like ok, thats cool. We saw each other Thursday at karaoke like always, but he didn’t say that that meant I could start calling him again lol. So then Friday I hung out with Michael, and Mike called me at like 1130 at night when Michael and I were sitting at my house watching old home videos of me lol. But Mike was really drunk..and he got really jealous when I said I was sitting with Michael at my house and he starts yelling at me like “WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH ANOTHER GUY AT MIDNIGHT ON A SCHOOL NIGHT!?!?” it was Friday night….anywho. Then we hung up after a while cause he was being an annoying drunk, and then he called me back like 5 minutes later and was like let me talk to Michael! But Michael didn’t want to talk to him and I didn’t want them to talk. But he kept pushing me so I was like PLEASE TALK TO HIM MICHAEL, just get it over with. And they talked and Mike was being a rude drunk asshole, asking stuff like “so, do you have sex with a lot of hoes? How are you enjoying sex with my girl? If I was in your place that’s what I’d be doin, trying to get with her.” And when Michael told me Mike said all this I was so embarrassed and pissed off MAN it made me MAD. Then Saturday he was supposed to go to Tara’s birthday party and I was gonna see if he wanted to go with me, cause then I could at least talk with him about how upset it made me. Just cause he likes me to tell him everything. I called and he was at work. Then I was like whatever, its already 7 I gotta get to the party. So I went to the party and had to be home at 11, and after I dropped Kayla off I called him and he didn’t answer. Then he called me at 1130. And the only thing that bothered me was that when I said how embarrassed it made me..and I told him what he had said he just laughed. And I was like NO it wasn’t funny it embarrassed me! And he didn’t apologize. The whole time…GRRR. It made me so mad. GRRR. Anyways. I called him yesterday at like 9 and he answered the phone half asleep so I said “nevermind, go back to bed, goodnight” grar. Time for school…bye