What did that dream mean ?

I have been seeing old friends and neighbors a lot lately.  They all ask … how is Austin ?
How do I answer them ?  My heart breaks each time  I tell them that he lives with his dad and doesnt want me in his life.  They look at me in disbelief and almost sorry they have asked.

I want to see my son so bad …. I miss him so much … Halloween is almost here … I have some paper halloween bags that I got from my mom.  She use to always give the children a paper bag filled with candy.  I want to do that … I want him to remember … and feel and know that the love is here. 

How do I get it to him ?
How will he receive it?

I wonder if he needs his halloween costumes that I believe I have in the storage room. 
How are you my Austin … mommy loves you so much…

I had a nightmare last night … I approached my friend, Jennifer  my mom was suppose to meet me here and I asked Jennifer if she was coming. Jennifer told me that my mom went home and  then she asked me how was Austin … I responded in tears and sobs that Austin had died on October 19th, he threw himself in front of a car.

What did that dream mean ?
Im so glad it is past the 19th of October …