Alone So Much !

I find myself alone so much lately … leaving me with my thoughts is not good… I am not a happy person …
I feel worthless and alone.  I dont know what to do anymore.  I feel like Im hitting rock bottom and nobody cares.  This is my hell … my destiny

I am an island ….. being washed away slowly from the tide … when the island is totally submurged … will anyone notice that there once was an island … maybe some people will notice … my Erik and my Austin … I love you both very much … more than life itself !!!

I am just a tool to be used and discarded.
Never embrassed  …. just judged and shot down.  Why does the pain and the hurt always take over so strongly.

I am haunted by all the wrong Ive done in my life … wrong choices, hurtful decisions that caused others pain and unhappiness…