ttc rant

Sometime the beginning of july i was officially diagnosed with pcos. To tell the truth it really didnt surprise me i kinda already had my suspisions but i kept hopeing i was wrong. I had been to the hospital before for cysts ruptureing and my periods have never been regular. It also took me 2 years of activaly trying to get pregnant before i had one that stuck and finally got my beautiful little girl. I have also had to suffer with the embarrassement of facial hair. So you could say i pretty much knew but to have it acutually diagnosed by a doctor really upset me. Me and matthew both want a big family and i realize that will more then likely not happen. I would like at least one more. Matthew wants a boy so bad and i hate that i may not be able to give it to him.

We have had unprotected sex since Kayley was 3 months old she is now 20 months old so that has been 17 months so far with no luck. It’s been a few months since my last period so when i had my 6 month check up monday he started me on prometrium to hopefully jumpstart my period. On the first day of my period i have to call them so i can get some hormone tests scheduled. once i get those done he said i will prob have to get on some type of medicane cause he said " your obviously gonna need help to get pregnant".  So for now i guess i will continue to take the prometrium and hope that once i finish it my period comes. It doesn’t help that my oldest sister is pregnant with her third child now and she cant even afford the 2 she already has. If i am not pregnant again by may i don’t know how i will be able to bare seeing and holding my baby newphew and then having to give him back.