You are too sofffT

One of my side goals is to broaden my scope. I have a very limited experience in this life, and like anyone my reality is shaped by my experience. The company I work for took last year to beef up their diversity and inclusion programs. I took advantage of the opportunity and signed up for a couple. I’m most excited about the book club because…well, I’m a nerd and I love to read. So far, I’m pleased. We’re on our third book and the wide range of backgrounds being introduced has been a mixture of incredibly uncomfortable and surprisingly refreshing. Which may seem shitty to say, but I think it’s kind of refreshing to learn that we’re all fucking fucked up. Everyone just wants to be understood and loved, and yet we make it such a difficult thing to obtain for whatever reason.

Sometimes I think I might just be a little too soft for this world.

Case in point, another one of my main goals is to heal my body. This week I started a 90 day strength training challenge, which I’ve been putting off doing for a while because at my core I’m a sloth, and who has time when there’s so much hentai to watch?

OMGeeeeerrrd! Muscles I forgot I have are sore. Bro, it should not hurt this much to sit down. Or stand up. Or go up stairs. Fucking squaaaaaats, y’all. Why, oh why, does stretching sore muscles hurt so good? I was asked to help pull down our 75 pound canoe earlier today, “Okay but my arms are like wet noodles right now, so if I drop it then…well I warned you, I guess.” I didn’t drop it by the way, not to brag or anything, or imply that’s anything worth bragging about for that matter, but trying to sit down on the toilet without feeling like an 80 year old man’s got me stumped at the moment. Well, not this moment. Just to clarify.

I also just booked my trip to see the bestie in February. She’s also doing a 90 day challenge. So naturally a week of debauchery smack dab in the middle of it makes all the sense in the world.  Logical or not, I’m excited. A whole week where I can just be me. Not Mom, not the wife, just me. I can’t wait 🤗