No drama …

… no drama … no drama … I continue to remind myself of that, although it isn’t easy Not to participate in the adjustment that Dan is going through with the change in our relationship.  I regret telling him how I felt when we met in July.  I thought (expected) our friendship to be stronger than sex, and it seems that without the sexual aspect, our relationship has become strained.  I hope sex wasn’t the glue holding our friendship together, because at this point from where I sit, it sure as hell feels like it was.  Wow … that felt good to get out … is it drama to say this to him??  Writing it here is one thing, but unless I tell him (or anyone for that matter) how I feel, it’ll just sit in my chest like a lump.  Too many times in my life I’ve swallowed my words, my thoughts, my feelings … all because I don’t want to rock the boat … dammit anyway!!  I’m tired of biting my tongue and being understanding instead of being understood … sigh … oh man, this really matters to me.  Drama or not, I’m going to tell him how I feel.