I Gotta Stop Prioritizing People

Okay, I’m back. I think lol

My grandma was very superstitious, so growing up, she told me a bunch of wild things. One thing she told me never to do was to cut my hair or cut my nails at night. She never said why. Well, I just cut my nails not that long ago, and it’s night. I just can’t type (or do anything, basically) when they are even a tad bit long. I don’t know how people will fancy long nails do it. I always wanted to get my nails done, but I just know I can’t function haha.

These past couple of weeks have been pretty tough. I’ve made so many realizations, and as much as they hurt, I’m glad they happened. No matter what, I’d always want the truth no matter how much it hurts. What’s the point in living a lie?

I always tend to make people my priority, even if we aren’t that close. It’s not something I think about, it’s something that just kind of happens, and I’ve done this ever since I was little. I’ll still care about people (I always will), I just have to learn to not make them a priority.

The whole setting boundaries and cutting ties with certain people and things will be a difficult, but it’ll probably be necessary in this journey. The entire month of July has been brutal, but I think it’s the result of all of the things I’ve allowed. Time to move forward.

I want to try to be better at writing in here too. I admit that I was thinking of going away, but I don’t want to give up on what I started so soon. I guess I just got discouraged for a bit.

Here’s to a brand new work week. I really like the new schedule that I’ve set for myself. I think I’m keeping it. I have a new project to focus on as well. Besides work, I have some other things that I’d like to focus on as well. I’m currently writing a poetry book, and I want to get back into reading. I like the idea of going on adventures and getting lost in books. Right now, Stephen King’s Fairy Tale has my interest.