A Glimpse Of What Might Be…

Had one of my weird dreams last night.  In it, I had started to seriously date Jason.  Scott and I really wanted to be together, but our distance kept us apart, so we just remained good friends online.  Things between Jason and I were going great but I kept having this feeling that I was just settling.  And upon hearing that I was with Jason, Kevin became very jealous and kept trying to get me to come back to him.  And as much as I wanted to be with him again, it was too late.  I couldn’t hurt Jason like that, so I had to say goodbye to Kevin for good, and then I cut off all ties to him completely.  I woke up very sad.  I think I was crying in my sleep.

On the job front, still no word on anything.  I have sent out my resume to over 30 companies.  I have a very strong background in retail management.  I have glowing recommendations from ALL my previous employers.  And to not get a call back, at least for an interview, is taking a really big blow to my ego.  I had always figured that no matter what happened, I would always be able to get a job back in retail, and that seems to not be the case any more.  I am really starting to get scared about what I’m going to do now…