Lost brother found..

I got the phone number for my brother of my little sister yesterday, and i immediately called him.

As you can imagine i was a little upset, hes been gone for years, no phone calls, nothing, so when he came on the line, i started getting upset with him, he said "ang. im not in the mood to be yelled at" and i asked him if it was because of Mikey, he said "yes" and my vice started cracking; I told him that Mikey even thought he was dead! and he was like "noooooo"…

Jimmy has been in rehab for the past 2 1/2 years, the people there thought we knew he was there, no, we had no idea where he was at!; Jimmy said he got the feeling that no one wanted him around (it was a tough time when he was around), and i told him "hey, your our brother!!"

we talked a bit more, then i told him i loved him, he told me he loved me and we promised to tak again, and hung up..

Then i talked to my younger sister lasntight, and somehow Jimmy thinks Mikey died 3 days ago not 3 months ago!!!! i know my older sister talked to him first, so, i dont know what happened, and he told the people who work there that my older sister is comming to brig him home, which isnt true..

My older sister, doesnt want Jim around because she "finally got her kids’ through mikey’s death", and that has my temper up!! he is our brother and needs to grieve, we are his sisters and need to grieve right along with him, the way Tina acts Mikey’s memory should be pushed aside because, oh, her poor little children might get upset!! grrrrrrr!!! she is so selfish, has always been that way, for the longest time we didnt talk because she is the way she is, then after Mikey died we started talking again, now this! (it didnt really matter to me if we had a relationship or not, i never got along with her, and never thought of her as my "real" sister, Tina is adopted, i know thats a cruel way to think, but, its true, ever since i can remember ive always felt that way…)

Anyway, Jim told me he was doing good, then i find out that hes really not, and is depressed about Mikey, which is understandable, hes on medication and they want him to admit himself to a hospital..

The place keeps calling my older sister with updates on Jimmy, which upsets me, he has my phone number, i am his sister too, how about calling me and keeping me informed on my brother, and my younger sister too..

Tina has never wanted to be part of our family, she always thought she was better, and now that everything has happened, she wants to be included, thats why i got so upset when Mikey died, Tina and her husband came waltzing in taking everything over, Mikey didnt lik her her husband and the he said "the only time Tina comes around is when she wants something", it was like a battle when Mikey died, Holly and i were around him alot more and were pretty sure of what he wanted and didnt want, but, there was Tina and her husband around the corner everytime we decided to do something different..

Tina is the one, when my mom died took a camcorder into taper her lying in her casket, well, if i remember correctly, it was her husband doing the taping, my step dad had a fit, and i dont blame him, i think taping someone who is dead, is morbid, I know thre are some people out there who see nothing wrong with it, though..

My little sister is going to call Jim today, i might call him later too, all he wants is to come home, poor guy, hes near Pittsburg, i think it was called Beaver Falls..

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