Just babbling…
I’ve been thinking about joining the local YMCA, especially for the winter, I know how cold it get’s when your walking, and i don’t mind, really, i have a very warm winter coat, it’s fallng on my butt that concerns me, the coat is so big i’d be rolling around in the snow trying to get up; seriously, i dont want to walk the main road in the winter because i’m afraid someone will lose control in the snow or ice and hit me, which they could do that now, i know..
It’s just alot of money to join, money I don’t have, but, it sure would b nice to be in a warm place exercising, and they have a swimming pool, and exercise classes, ahhh, who knows, i’ll probably be out walking again this winter, i hate winter, i only get 2 walks in because it get’s dark early..
Sometimes i wonder why i push myself so hard, I don’t really have to, I guess if i don’t i’m afraid i’ll sit around and eat, something i don’t want to do!! lus, getting out and walking is peaceful, I actually like being by myself, I think alot, and those are the times my poems come to me, Michael sees me writting after i come home from a walk and says"another poem?? did you get inspired on your walk??"
It is so pretty around here, yesterday i was watching the clouds’ shadows’ crossing over the montain tops’, and when it’s foggy out in the morning, i love seeing it over the mountains, I wish i had a camera.LOL Alot of people don’t appreciate nature and i was one of them until i started walking, it’s just so beautiful..
The other morning i was walking and there was an older lady standing, just staring at the mountains, she looked at me and said she was enjoying the view because we dont know for how long we will have it, which is true…
I wonder if ill come up with a poem this morning.LOL I wrote one yesterday morning for Jimmy, If i think of it later, ill post it in here, i could do it now, but, im to lazy to get up..LMBO
oh, what the heck, ill get it now.LOL
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Little brother lost,
full of heartache and pain,
numbing these feeling’s at any cost..
So, you hit your knees,
and begin to pray,
"God,help me please, I want to stay",
Suddenly, feeling a strength within,
you know now,
this battle you will win…..
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That poem is for Jimmy, he needs alot of help, especially from God, one day i know he will be able to fight that demon inside of himself, hes trying so hard, i just wish i could help him, but, he has to help himself, he was ding good i guess until he found out that Mikey died, hes having alot of guilty feelings because he want there for him..
I just wish i could talk to Jimmy again and explain to him that guilty feelings are normal, we all have and are still having them, and that i will be here for him, whatever he needs…
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