Bob and other stuff………

I got to drive bob’s car yesterday, i was so worried, ive never driven anything other than our car, well, i drove my sisters van in the church parking lot.LOL so that doesnt count, but, i was amazed at how easy driving another car is, i was so worried i wouldnt be able to, but, i did it, i went slow to get the feel of the car though, made some people upset im sure, but, hey, im just learning..

When we were driving on a back road there was a cadilac that zoomed right past, a speed that i felt (and bob felt to) wasnt appropriate for that particular stretch of road, I know i dont have my liscense yet and am just learning to drive, but, even i knew the person was going to fast, where we were there was alot of curves, so, im surprised that he didnt crash up the road, plus, where he passed me wasnt a passing zone, honestly, i wonder how some people get their drivers’ liscense in the first place…

My brother called me lastnight to see if my sister and Tay. were here, I hadnt seen them all day, we had a yard sale and then i went driving, I dont know if my sister told him they were comming here or not, but, anyway, there was a policeman there at the trailor looking for my niece and Holly, Mikey asked them what it was about and he said hed rather talk to Taylor and Holly, whatever happened didnt sound like a good situation..

So, my brother said if he had any new information he would call me back, he never called, then we got a severe thunderstorm, so, i couldnt call him back..

Mikey said the cop started on him, and he explained to him that he wasnt Taylors father, he is her uncle, then the cop apologized, but, he was upset, he said he didnt want to have to go back to Hollys, he was allready there a few times..

I dont know whats going on, but, im sure this time Holly has messed herself up, i really believe she is going to lose those kids’, and im moving, we are getting an rv at the end of this month and traveling, so, i cant take those kids’ and that breaks my heart, i love them dearly, but, I have my own life, im not getting any younger and i want to go out and enjoy myself, those kids’ are Hollys responsibility, its time she grows up, I think, now, however its to late..

I just know that i cannot raise 4 kids’, especially in an rv, i am on a fixed income, and the only one who gets anything is tay. shes on social security, none of the fathers pay child support, so, thre is no possible way that if she gets them taken off her that i could raise them, even if i wanted too..

The police have her liscense number off the van also, which is even worse because she doesnt have a drivers liscense, and the police said they would be looking for the van, i knew this would come back to bite her, thats why i dont do things illegal, because sooner or later it comes back and the luck you thought you had ends really quick..

The last time i talked to Holly she said to me "i wish you werent moving", well, all i can say is im sorry, its time to grow up and start depending on yourself, start rescueing yourself from your problems, i cant do it anymore..

I dont know why my sister is acting like this, she WAS NOT raised to be this kind of mother or person, my mother was a very good mother, after my dad died she did the best she could to raise us and she did a great job, of course we had some bumps in the road, but, we survived..

Im just shocked at my sisters behavior, my other sister went up there screaming at her about leaving when the kids’ went to bed, the other night she didnt come home till midnight and she comes in later than that on other nights.

Also, we think shes taking drugs, both Mikey and Michael have said that when they talked to her she acts weird, all jumpy and i never thought about it before, but, when i was talking to her on the phone yesterday she acted i dont know, too bubbly for her, and she said she was going to come up to use the pool and she never showed up, now, shes always been like that, putting men before her children and her brothers and sisters, so, that comes as no surprise to me..

The "new" man in her life is well known for drugs, i went to school with the guy ( i never did drugs, of course) but, he had the reputation, plus, my other brother who was into drugs hung around with him..

Whats really sad in all this, if she does lose the kids’ this time, she wont care, all she would think is FREEDOM, tears my heart into a million pieces..

I know the kids’ have horrible behavior, and my sister has only herself to blame for that, she has never once disiplined those kids’, especially when they were younger, they did and still do run her..

Maybe it would be for the best for them to take the kids’ and put them into a loving, responsible home where they can get help, because i know they all need therapy..

Taylor had her 6th grade graduation the other day, i was sicker than a dog, but, i went because that is something that will never happen again, and i was so proud of my niece, that i wanted to share her day with her, well, we were talking (tay and I) and i told her how proud we all were of her, she looked at me and said "not mom" i about died, im sure somewhere in her heart Holly was proud, i tried telling tay. different, but, she wouldnt listen, that has to feel awful knowing that your mother isnt proud of you, we all live to make our parents’ proud…

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