Early Morning Half Light

In the early morning grey
a time ‘tween sleep and wake
I drifted into dreams
and was suddenly awake
My children were all there with me
and it was long ago
They were but young children
And now they all have grown
We travelled to the seaside
a family holiday together
Then in a grey predawn moment
my Susan was not with me
Susan was now sixteen
and decided to be alone
No longer would I feel
our family was at one
I woke with such foreboding
I struggled with my mind
I reached out to find reality
in the time I’d left behind
I am no longer young now
my children have all grown
my grandchildren  have all left
their siblings family home
Still this feeling haunts me
I feel so all alone
my oldest daughter
has now left me
in the early morning half light
between nights giving moment
I struggle into the daylight
to regain my sanity
And find myself again