One-Hundred-Ten: A Simple Day At Last

Time to Relax

Harry’s absence in my life was putting a void in my heart. I wish he’d understand how much I needed him. He holds a special place that nobody could ever fill. I never meant to hurt him. I never deserved him in my life. He has so much potential that dealing with me would only bring him down. I keep being in denial to how I feel for him so neither of us can get hurt – but of course someone ends up being wounded. It’s okay though. I think that Zeke and I are fated to live together, and it may be for the best if Harry isn’t in my life anymore. Of course, I think the question will always remain in my mind how things could’ve been.

I felt smothered lately, almost hollow. I am living an artificial life, with artificial truths. I’ve been going to class, been called insane, and now am old news because of Jazmine’s return. I don’t understand what this life has in store for me. I wonder if it was me who passed away instead of Zeke – if someone would try to resurrect me. I doubt it. I have too many demons inside of me. I imagine Hogwarts having a rejoice party about me not being there anymore. There’d be no more killings, at least not from a student and not anymore pain. Harry would be the great hero who would be idolized. Colin would find a new best-friend, though I can really see him missing me but he’d move on eventually. Zeke would never have lost his vampire powers so he would be on the road with his brother, still running from people who want his fangs. Piastol would be with Celesi – not being tormented by me.

I always heard that you are remembered for the deeds you’ve done while you were alive, and what you’ve done for others. I don’t think anybody would have anything nice to say at my funeral. My veela spell would be broken and people would see me as me…the girl who isn’t friendly. I mean I am nice to some but to others, I have an attitude. I wish people would get to know the real me. Underneath all this beauty is a lost, fragile girl who just wants to be understood.

“Ms. Delacour, what’s your answer?” A cheery Professor Sprout asked. I must’ve been lost in my thoughts and didn’t even hear the question.

“Um….” I looked around the room and saw Piastol mouth the answer to me. “Devil’s Snare.”

“Oh yes, my dear. That is correct!” She exclaimed, being surprised by my answer. I gave her a warm smile back and Zeke looked at me as if I was so intelligent. I shrugged my shoulders. It made me feel even more inferior because…I haven’t studied magic in so long. Maybe I would’ve known the answer if I was listening. I guess I’ll never know.

“Good job,” Zeke elbowed me playfully. “If we ever need protecting, I’ll know I’m safe until I learn the ropes!” I wanted to run away at that point but I stayed in my seat until class was over. I hurried out the door and dropped my books. Zeke bent down to try and help me before the students came stampeding out. As we were gathering them, Jazmine came in and tried to help.

“‘Ello cousin of mine. Let me help zou!” She exclaimed. “Oh you must be Zeke. Nice to meet zou. I’m Jazmine.” She stuck her hand out for him to shake it but he didn’t.

“You sure are….bonne.” Zeke said using his french. In case you’re wondering, it means happy.

“Oh you don’t have zo speak francais. I know English.” She laughed. “I am happy. Life is beautiful, don’t you think?” She handed me my last book. “So Tanya, you’d be happy to know I’ve been talking to Colin. He mizzes you, but I have a remedy for zhat. He and I are going out for lunch laterz.” As she said that, I rolled my eyes.

“Well take care of him. I’d hate to kill you!” I laughed as her look got serious. “I was kidding – you know hahaha.” She laughed nervously back.

“Oh kidding? Hehe. I zee. I have class now. Bye, cousin!” She rushed to her seat in Herbology. Zeke and I looked at each other and shrugged.

Walking down the corridor, I saw Harry and Hermione hanging out. This struck me as odd. I haven’t seen those two together in a long time. I had to get the inside scoop.

“Harry!” I said running toward him, pulling Zeke along. “I was hoping to reschedule that shopping trip.”

“Sorry, Tanya. I meant what I said. We need a break, ya know? Besides, I have plans with Hermione later. Maybe sometime in the far future.” Harry walked away.

“What was that about?” Zeke asked confused.

“Oh he…well…I don’t know. I think he just has a lot on his mind. It’s okay though. Besides, we have plans now. You and I are going out in town. I don’t think you’ve been. We’ll go tomorrow. Right now, we have more classes to attend.”

“I’m glad you’re warming up to going to class, not that you need it.” He looked at me like I was the best thing that ever happened to him. I needed that.

After the classes ended, it was time to relax back in the Commonroom. Piastol and Celesi were on the couch holding a letter while Luna sat in a chair contently playing with her pet. I think that Precious ran away because I haven’t seen her in such a long time. Maybe I should take Zeke out to town to get me a new kitten. I know that Leona is well taken care of because I keep her in a cage beside my (now our) bed. Zeke also needs a pet.

“Lovegood, what are you doing in the Ravenclaw Commonroom once again? Your robes are clearly black and yellow. I don’t know you keep getting in here.” I placed my hand on my hip.

“Dumbledore gave me permissi

on.” He quickly replied as he and Celesi still stared at the letter.

“Well…fine then. Be as you were,” I waved my hand in the air as Zeke tried not to laugh. “What? He’s a Hufflepuff. It’s almost as if he moved in here.”

“I didn’t say anything.” He looked at me. “It’s okay. I like my women feisty.” With that, he and I went into the dorm.

“So I was thinking we could go and look at new pets. I used to have a kitten named Precious but I have no idea where she is…I think I neglected her. I know that sounds awful but I’ve been so busy and…well I haven’t seen her around. Maybe somebody stole it, maybe she ran away.” I shrugged my shoulders.

“I’m not sure if having something to take care would be the best thing for you right now. I mean we have so much studying to do and besides, we still need to get to know each other.” Zeke replied, and he was right. I nodded. He always takes care of me.

“Well I guess you have a valid point. What is up with you and all of this studying?” I interrogated.

“Whenever you’re as old as I am, you watch empires fall due to lack of education. You really see the value of it.caI know you don’t enjoy going to class but I am glad you are. It’s nice for you to get outside your head sometimes. I notice that you struggle with that. Besides, if you set your mind to it, I can see the potential to be a great witch in you.” He explained. I took it as a compliment.

“You’re so sweet, Zeke. I fall in love with something new everyday.” I wrapped my arms around him. “Nap time?”

“Yes, please but as soon as we wake up – it’s time to study for that Potions midterm tomorrow.” Zeke commanded. I reluctantly agreed. Maybe he was right. Hogwarts is a school after all and education is far too important, especially these days.