Van catch-up

So where were we?

The van the insrnce company deemed a total loss, and offered to simply pay off my loan, and no more. 

I on the other hand need more money than that, so I opted for a slightly lower pay off, and took pocession of the van back. I had brand new tires on it, which I gave to my dad, and then I am trying to sell it. If I get nothing in a day or two I will sell it for scrap, and still make more money than what the insrance company offered me. 

So you know not all was lost on the deal.

I got a brand new Town and country. Well new to me. It is red, and newer, has power everything, new headlights, tires, no rust, and a dvd player. It is ultimate luxury compared to what I am used too. The best thing is rear climate control for the kids. 

I feelso guilty about it though. I mean it cost so much. Too muhc. but with our family size we have to have something that holds us all, and those options are more limited. 

Car shopping was too too too stressful, way too stressful for how awful I still feel. 

I saw pictures of myself htis weekend, and I am still incredibly pale, and my eyes are black looking and sunken. I look awful. Why didn’t people tell me I looked so bad? And why do people tell me I look acceptable? Lies all lies. 

Anyways, I am headed to the doctor today because after the accident my stomach hurts horrifically. If you think where a seatbelt is on your stomahc it crosses my inscion. I am havign sharp pains in my pelvis, and I am now struggling to hold sirris to feed him because the pressure of his little bpdy is too much to bear. I tried ingorning it, but I can’t anymore. Getting an appointment was a challange, no one had anything, but then after the nurse spoke with the doctor they found something. 

Other than car buying the weekend was good. I got my toe nails done with my sister and Samara.We had a nice lunch, and then easter was nice and quiet. No in laws.

Speaking of in-laws, my mil & sil invited themselves in the other day when droppping off Samara. They are both so hateful somedays. I got yelled at for not naming Sirris after her father, (Richard is not a name we wanted for a child). Melissa chimed in sayng that she was going to name her son after him, jolly good dear. It was a mutual choice to not use family names. 

She told me she was glad we were done with babies because we weere out of "s" names. 

She told me in front of Samara how lucky I was to have boys, because girls are horrible to raise? 

The only good thing I heard is they finally called first steps for my neiece. I have been saying she needed seen for months now, but no. The kicker, they called on speech, not her legs? She walks funny, and w sits, and they are worried about speech? Sigh… I am not so crazy afterall apparently. 

The bright spots of my life are my kiddos are woderful. I mean Sirris is a doll, Sabastian is bright and curious, and Samara is doing so well in ABA! 

Travis has had some moments of good lately, it is nice. I don’t count on it to last, but he has his moments.

Ok, small one is sleeping, I should shower… 

Sorry there is a million typos, but alas I am too tired to care, lukcily no one grades OD.