The one where I get older

Yesterday I turned 33.

I really never thought I would have. Weird. I was freaked out all day Tuesday. I even stayed up all night, just till midnight just to make sure.

Anyways, my birthday. I didn’t have to take kids to school!

Ed took me to Ikea, and to portillos for lunch!

We were silly, we were fun, we laughed, we talked, we just were us, us without kids. magic!!

We did some serious wedding planning, locked down some plans, and not just hypothetical discussions, we actually made choices. We narrowed it down to two songs for first dance 1) Beautiful Trauma, Pink! 2) Hold Each Other, Great Big World. I think we will go with the second one. We also discussed processional music. We have two very different ideas. One super silly, one socially acceptable. I wonder what one we’ll chose? Also, father daughter dance, to star wars theme, that works right? Also, we have decided we need the recessional music to be from a john wayne movie because he loves it so. See. we are trying to make this our own.

The first time around, I eloped, his previous wedding he was supposed to be stoic, proper, he was told where to go, sit, stand, smile, breathe, he had no say. She did everything. He assumed that how ours was going to be. I finally was like no, this is our wedding. We are doing stuff we like. If I am planning all this myself, we aren’t doing it. If we are doing it for us, because we want it then yes, but give input. He is now, I think he finally gets that

At Ikea I got a wall shelf for pictures, napkins for class parties, some frames, glasses, dishes. We no longer have divorcee dishes! I am so happy about that.

We came home, had dinner, french dip subs, sugar cream pie, (everyone had matching plates, cups, silverware)  and candles, presents. I got a cool heating pad bear, and some essential oils.

We went to the drive through light display with my dad.

We came home, put the kiddos to bed, and had some adult time. I have to note, we did some stretching exercises I learned in PT, and for the first time in I can not remember when it didn’t hurt when we had sex. Maybe we can make that happen again? I hope so.

Overall, I had an awesome day, I have wanted Ed here for my birthday for so so many years, and finally he was. I want every single birthday from now on to be shared with him. Not just birthdays, but ordinary days too.

Today, I worked all day, and I am getting sicker and sicker, I am not sure if this is a cold or the flu, but I feel terrible.