stupid letters

I have to say I hate ptsd, and the men in my life who have it. I have been continually disappointed, and hurt, and I feel depleted by those stupid little letters that have altered and changed my life in such a big big way.

Living with this illness makes me so angry, what makes me angrier is there is healing, and hope from it, and it;s "too hard" and no one has a problem but me. 

You know I am getting so tired of hearing that I am the only one in the world that has a problem. That I am the only one who needs work on anything. 

The stress of it all is genuniely getting to me, I need to get in to talk to someone soon. Although despite my best trying, nothing is working very well on that front either… 

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