Still…….*

 Its offical, I am 4 days past my due date… Still pregnant, not in labor. It is discouraging in a way. I really really want to have this baby soon. Naturally, safely, and in the best possible way for both of us. 

But it seems I am going to be pregnant forever, and ever. Maybe I am not really pregnant, and just fat. Maybe, I have just had a stomach virus, or parasite that is causing the nausea. 

And maybe, he is staying in there, because he likes it. 

I have tried everything to help with labor. From pineapple, to castor oil (which does nothing really when you already take zofran and iron pills) primrose oil, to well you know everything. 

Nothing is causing sustainable labor inducing contractions. Sure I have them, but I am thinking they are all BH. I ache and am crampy, like I could start any second, and nothing.

It is frustrating. 

So, I go on with life. I go on with being pregnant.

We insanely cleaned the living room, bathroom, kitchen, den, hall, and the kids room. The kids room I am proud of. It now looks wonderful. I removed one bed and trundled it under the other. They have room to play and put away toys. It looks great. We finally hung curtains, and hung up the toy hammock. 

I went and bought my daughter pants, because suddenly she is too tall. (but isn’t waist wise.)

I have my bags packed, and repacked.

I keep enjoying my little Sabastian, for he won’t be my baby but a few more moments it seems. I am enjoying my Samara, because she really needs me lately. Moreso than usual. 

We are ready for this baby, mentally, I am done with being pregnant…It has taken its toll on me. it sounds so selfish, but pregnancy has been hard. 

I was hoping to have had him by now, it would have made my week much easier to be almost out of the hospital or home, and not going… I have Samara starting ABA this week and transportation is going to be an issue. Because God forbid Travis has to do any of it. He gets too stressed out waiting. Not that, I find it easy with crazy dude and all. 

Hopefully next time you hear from me, it is an announcement I have an unnamed baby boy. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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