Something

So, Travis is home and moved back in. I am not going to lie I feel like he bullied his way back in…

Although since he has been home he has been marginally better, I say marginally because there are still some big issues. But with the kids he is better, and that gives me hope it a way. 

This is not to say our marrige is saved. There is nothing there left to save in my mind. He keeps hinting at things, and frankly, for all I care that part of our life is over. 

He is on medication, and is going to his appointments albeit slow.

He took us pumpkin picking which was nice, and he doing the zoo halloween with us this year as well. So that is something, he is getting out of his shell somewhat. 

School, is going well. I love it. I can’t tell you how amazing it is to be there, and to be learning. I do miss my babies though. I am conciously trying to not have mom guilt over it. You know, I made a choice and will not be made to feel like I am failing. It is what it is. I love my little ones and am trying to do the best for them. 

Speaking of my little ones they are doing well. Sabastian is finally a little less crazy, and more functional now, and it helps significantly. 

I wish I had more, and I sure I do, but I want a shower before the crazy that is my day starts,