On field trips, vets, & nieces. *pics*

 When I was a in school there was nothing better than a field trip, and I always looked forward to sharing those fun moments in life with my little children. Although my children seem to hate field trips. Samara hates the change in routine and she is afraid of new things. Then Sabastian is dragged with and sigh…. He hates it too. 

We survived the field trip but not without 2 of them crying. 

We made weird food, but it was nice. 

Sabastian still has not started OT. I am so frustrated by this. Seriously this woman is on my last nerve and I haven’t even met her yet. Perhaps if she were nicer on the phone. Then maybe I would be more forgiving. 

We are having so many sensory problems and nursing. He has oral motor problems and always wants to chew. Plus, his sporatic patterns are killing me. One night he nurses 12xs the next 2 xs my breasts ache and hurt. One side I even have vascular problems because of how he nurses. I have looked it up and some moms have had this problem but either they dealt with it or they weaned. Fucking really? No one has fucking answers. The LC’s are all to busy for me I have tried and LLL has nothing either. 

I played nice yesterday and went to the Vet center with Travis. He showed us off for a few minutes. It was all oohs and ahhs… I wish the world would have to spend more time with our veterans. Seriously, these men who served our country well are socially deficent. Paranoid, broken men who deserve so much better than what we are willing to give them. The fact of the mater is their mental scars which render them non-functional no one wants to akknowledge. Many men and women sacrfice something physical for their country but even more sacrifice mentally. I want to do more. I think I really want to work with veterans. How could I not?

After the vet center we went to OT, and then Lunch with Sarah. She is my sister in law and we are becoming friends. Kinda. Its weird. 

Here is a crappy picture of the 4 kids. There is Kaylee, Sabastian, Laila, and Samara. The girls are 4 months. Kaylee is taller than Sabastian already. They are stiff little girls, compared to Sabastian. Of course I wonder if it is becuase he has weak muscle tone or not?

I am supposed to have my horrible neice over this week. gag me with a spoon. She is exhausting. Simply exhausting. I can deal with my autistic daughter and my sensory son, but her untreated emotional deficits are going to be the death of me. 

And now dude man calls…