On early morning thoughts

 This morning I was laying in bed snuggling my baby boy. The warmth of his little body was next to mine. I could feel his soft hair against my cheek, and hear his little sighs and he breathed in and out. I drank in his sweet intoxicating baby smell. 

It was one of those peaceful moments I have learned to savor. He woke up as I kissed his head, and he smiled at me. He was so happy to see me this morning as he is every morning.

I was thinking as I often do when I am the only one up in the morning. I am happy I have the children I do. I am so happy that I know what I do and know my resources available so I am able to help my children.

If I were another parent would I have taken my baby to the doctor like I did and be told it was just colic and ignore the crying?

If I were another parent would I allow my shrilling children to scream alone in a cold room because they have to be trained to be quiet and sleep? Instead of realizing there is something else going on?

If this were another time would I allow my child to be sedated to control them, or give them alochol because it’s was was done?

If this were another time and place what sort of treatments would my child be put through to rid my child of their demons or spirits which makes them scream?

If this were another time would my children be placed in a home for slow children allowed to rot because of their communication or physical barriers? 

If this were another place would I be scolded for providing a faulty male offspring and told to make another?

It breaks my heart to think about all the awful things that could happen to my sweet wonderful children. I know they were given to me for a reason, a good reason. They were given to me because i will love them, and advocate for them, and provide them with the best I can. 

I may never have a "typical" child but I will always have fantastic children. I will always love my children. I hope for the best for them. I hope I can give them what they need in life and most of all I hope they know they are loved, and always have a safe place to return too.