& hes home

Well, he is home. 

Lets all ponder that for a while. 

It has been a day and I am still just as anxious, and unsure of how I feel about it.

He came home, against my better judgement. Against what I felt was right, and against what I wanted. 

I don’tknow if it is for the best. Nor, do I know if anything will change. No, I take that back, something will change. Something has to change. 

I spoke with the doctor there in MArion who was simply just as blunt and honest as me. i liked him. Score one for scaring the crap out of Travis, and 2 for Travis listening to it. 

Basically, Travis has a severe video game addiction. It is to the point where it is at the level of an alcholic. He needs AA or something of that nature, and may be sent to substance abuse treatment for it. He is narrasistic, (I would say ocd personailty disorder not ocd) He has ptsd, he has anxiety and anger. 

He was told he can fix this, he was told if he does not agree to treatment I will be filing for seperation, and he will be leaving the house, I will not be. 

He will be going to battle creek for inpatient or I will be done. He will eb going to addiction treatment or I am out.

The paramiters are clearly defined, and the doctor told him he isn’t stupid. he knows what needs done, and will do it, because ifhe doesn’t I can declare him mentally unfit and send him to the state mental hospital.

So, he is home, he has been on his games some. Isn’t sleeping still. 

He talked to one of his vietnam guys.

He stated he was happier away from the kids and me. That hurt. Nice guy, really? Who says that crap? I say things like I enjoy time away or I enjoy the change when I am away, butI would never say I am happier without my children. 

I can not manage anything else right now. It is survivng the weekend. I have more to say, but now is not the time. I am going to try and shower, and make today good.