End of quarter randomness

 I am at the end of the quater cruch at school, and with everyone being sick I am so far behind. I have spent the day devouted to 1 paper. The topic? Homosexuality and Christianity. It is actually pretty informative.  You know even with all this online crap i could use I still use books most of the time. You should see my couch. Books and notes everywhere with post it notes, along side diapers and nursing pillows with dinsey movies int he background. Oh yes, I have evolved in life 

I wish I could just send my kids off sometimes so I could do what I need, but what type of mom would that make me? I am still Sabastians sole source of food. Plus I wouldn’t be able to stand the quiet.

2 weeks from now I will be on break, and in Chicago! I am excited! I am excited that I have a little girl with a love of learning that is as big as mine! 

And did you know in a mater of a few weeks I will be the mom to a 5 year old? How crazy is that? 

I am slowly feeling better. I am hoping that no one will get sick anymore and we can all just relax. I should be done with the quater in a few days and maybe I can clean my house. Hopefully Travis will be getting back to work, and I can get my life back to normal.

I seriously want to change Sabastian"s name to Sabastian Danger Koi O.

I think I have descied I am not sending Samara to public school right now. It just feels wrong. If she were neruotypical maybe, but really, really I feel wrong about it all. Not when I know how the special ed coop feels about her, and me for that mater. what I am doing I have no idea. My SIL thinks she is quitting work and offered to watch my kids for me while I finish school. That would be a blessing and then Samara could homeschool or go to private school until she is old enough to go to the montesourri one. My only issue is that damn socilaization. Does she really need socialization?

Oh and I am having fanstasies about using a surrogate if I want another child. because lets face it I am the worst pregnant woman… Not that we will but I can dream.

Oh well I guess I should go to bed, and pray for sleep… Ahh sleep…