A week and Pumpkin Picking *PICS*

 I am home with just the baby man, and he isn’t feeling well. Samara and Travis are at his moms. He is getting paid while there so that is good. She is generous for his hard work.

Sabastian is still sick. He has been sick for 2 months now without any relief. Now he has a fever of 102. I took him to the doctor, she has no clue why. She is sending him to the immunologist when he is feeling some better. We need to find out why he is not responding to any treatment. He has been on 3 courses of antibiotics and 1 round of steroids, and is still not perking up. I am worried about him by now. Ifit were just a virus wouldn’t it be gone? I shouldn’t google things. No no. Googling is bad. 

I am slowly getting through school. I am working hard on my assignments, and day by day things are being done. My only compliant is my professors are not prompt graders. Several assignments and tests have been submited with no feedback. Frustrating. 

We went pumpkin picking this weekend it was lots of fun really. Samara is wearing a hat one of my lovely favs made for her. 

She make Sabastian one but he wouldn’t wear it. 

Samara insisted on taking my picture, and I had to let her. BTW facebook recognized my chest as a seperate person to tag. 

Samara has been strugglging with school and therapy and behavior. She seems to have so much anxiety, and she is so uncontrolable with her moods I have no idea what to do with her. She is so sweet one minute then the next she is enraged. We go tomorrow to start her iep process at school. I am praying sincerely they recognize we need help. She needs help. I am even hoping to find some way for her to be enrollled even part time. I don’t know. 

I go back in a few weeks for another ultrasound. I don’t know. I don’t feel confident about the last one. It was early, and the tech bearly checked. Plus I know I ovulated 3 days after sex. I still see my girl somewhere in my dreams and mind. I hear her song on the radio and I feel like maybe she is still out there. I am going to a private place where they are specifically looking for it with a 4-d manchine and I will be like 23 weeks along by then. So hopefully we will know something. My heart is just so unsure about it all right now I need to know. I am not buying anything else until we know for sure. PLus while we were in chichago there was little difference in the human devolpment exhibit between the 2 at 17-18 weeks. 

I am surviving here. I am still tired, but I am sleeping some. I even got a nap this week. It is amazing how much brighter life feels when you have slept some. 

Until next time I hope you all are having a good week. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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