9 month well baby and other things.

 Sabastian is doing really well since the surgery, his babbling has exploded, he even seems to "answer" us when we ask him something.

He had a well baby check and he is 17lbs 13 oz and 27 inches tall and his head is 48 centimeters. He is in the 10ish percentile for height and weight, and 100+ for his head. She even measured him twice thinking that couldn’t possibly be correct. It was.

Weird huh? He has grown less than an inch in the past 3 months. Less than an inch. He still fits 3-6 month clothes. Most of them are 6-9 and they are HUGE. Like Huge. His pants fall off. He is so tiny. He is healthy but tiny. The only thing growing on his seems to be his head. Has anyone else ever had kiddos where only their head seemed to grow?

He eats though, he is always eating here’s an average day for him.

wakes up nurses, has toast or cheerios with juice or coconut milk, then nurses more, bottle of coconut milk, nurses more, has about 1-2 jars of food, plus whatever we arer eating for lunch and dinner, nurses a dozen more times. It isn’t for his lack of eating.

He is eating so much better he bearly chokes anymore, and seems to be swallowing more than ever before. He also stopped moaning so badly when he eats. He seemed miserable before and now he seems so much calmer.

His mouth still looks awful. It breaks my heart. I struggle with mouth sores and I know how miserable they can be. Plus i have to mess with it constantly so it doesn’t scab back over.

Samara has been doing really well. Her baby-ness is gone, and now I have the most delightful little lady. I like who she is. She has a wonderful personailty and a nice temperment. We challange her and she rises to meet them time and time again. She is the best little girl with an amazing spirit, and I hope it remains. I don’t worry so much about her future anymore. She is doing so well I know she can do whatever she needs.

She is excited about homeschooling as am I. She is so happy to sleep in, and learn on her pace. I still have no clue what to do about cirriculm but hey it will come right? The problem is I don’t want sonlight or my father’s world. I just want cirriculm for kindergarten I don’t need any of it to have an agenda.

She too is growing, and I think she is just right about on track growth wise.

Father’s day is coming up and I am still short on Money and ideas. Travis is so hard to do something for because he doesn’t seem to care. It is frustrating.

I want to do everything for my dad but money and time are limited resources.

Tomorrow we have more therapy and then more therapy and then more therapy.

Then Saturday is a free sensory friendly showing of madagascar 3 and then a baby shower for one of my best friends. I am so excited to give her her present. I will have to take a picture of it. Pintrest was actually pretty awesome this time.

And finally I have been thinking about love and how we show it. Before I was a mom touch was how I was shown love, but i am all touched out these days.Plus I hurt a lot. Like a lot.  I think I feel love by actions now. Talking to me in a nice tone. Holding a door, calling or texting just because, making dinner, or folding laundry shows me love. Everyone helping with money showed me love.

It then occured to me that my real life people who say they love me are letting me down, I am looking for the other types but I am not finding them there either.

At least I always know my kiddos and my sister and parents love me, and at the end of the day I know I certainly am lucky for that.