Day 8//I love the silence

Day 8, mood: nostalgic, happy, hopeful for the future

As you can see my moods change drastically from day to day.
I studied all day today and went to my tutor in the evening. while I was driving my bike home I couldn’t held but notice the silence.
It’s a sunday night and there is absolutely nothing going on in my small town. but I like that, it gives me the chance think, or feel.
In Brussels it’s never quiet, there is always something making some sort of sound, and I like that too, I love listening to the city at night. but just because there is so much ‘noise’ in Brussels, it sounds even quieter here in my village. Also, I absolutely love watching the stars, I could do it all night, every night. I love the mystery about them. that I can’t see in Brussels either, smog..
and now here I am, laying on the floor listening to nostalgic music (wish you were here – pink floyd, the smiths, hotel california – the eagles,…) I always lay on the ground, it helps me think.
I just realized that the only thing I’m doing wrong in my life is planning, I don’t go with the flow enough and that is why I rarely truly feel happy or satisfied, I expect to much. I have to stop expecting, stop planning, and stop thinking so much. it’s no good. 
it doesn’t matter what I do, or where I am. I should be able to happy anywhere doing anything, and if I’m not the I should move on. it’s not that difficult now I finally see.  If I do my best to be happy every day, I will be, and I won’t have to ‘sit through’ hard times, there won’t be hard times, only love, fun, laughter and beauty. 

L.