This .That. & Those

I can’t believe how fast life goes by after 40. There really isn’t any special occasion to look forward too. Ok, so my wedding in August is pending and I really should be looking forward to it, but every time I think about it I feel myself to the brim with anxiety. I took a “mother may I” baby step and made my first call to a Venue ALDERBROOK INN. If you’re so inclined you can CHECK IT OUT HERE So, I guess I should have called a year ago to set this venue in stone because every Saturday is filled up in the months of July, August, and September. Fridays are available though– And October! but does anyone get married on a Friday or in Roctober? Has anyone ever been to a wedding on a Friday night?? I just don’t know, and this painful. I will need to talk to my family and see how they feel about this. I don’t know. GEESH!

..and then there is the matter of who is going to officiate the wedding ceremony. I want to have a traditional native wedding ceremony mixed with catholicism–is this possible? Will my uncle the priest agree with this. Add a big hurken pile of stress right here_____________

Ok need to stop right here thinking about all this wedding stuff. You don’t want to hear my rant about how much Phototogs charge and I haven’t even checked out flowers yet….who needs flowers anyway. Two daisies with a single ribbon would be perfect for my bouquet

There you go…I just lighted a Plymouth Candle-this one is Cinnaman and Sugar. D.E.L.I.G.H.T.F.U.L.

Random thoughts:

I light a candle every day and have them in almost everyroom.

*Craig passed his written test, I was really hoping he would fail again. I know this is wrong but I’m afraid he is going to kill someone

*Craig’s only household job duty is to vacuum the floors, he has this skilled mastered but why is it that he can’t roll up the cord. Why is the cord still strewn across the hallway and I trip over it. I should just do it myself but I’m waiting to see if he will roll up the cord himself==but I know he won’t.

Sometimes I feel as if I’m invisable…

Fruit flies are attacted to me or is it just the wine

Sometimes I wonder if I drink too much…what is too much. I never get drunk just lightly buzzed. Wondering if two glasses of wine is too much. I read somewhere if you have to ponder this question perhaps you have a problem.

Damn Damn, wishing Criag didn’t have to live with us. It really changes everything in the romance department.

BB had to use a ski pole to help him to the bathroom at 3 am

Criag used my primping bathroom downstairs this morning..I found myself checking all my lotions under the counter. I don’t like him in MY bathroom.

She wants to die but she is waiting for her family to come from LA…then I know she will die. She is speaking to me in her native tongue, no more english. This is very common when one is close to death. I wish I could undersand her. But compassion is universal

The hospice nurse bought me a bouquet of tulips for my office. That was the sweetest thing that has happened to me in along time. She is a wonderful person who I admire deeply. She wants me to be a hospice nurse. –time will tell