MeRLot —- EDIT

I am not asleep.

I am temporarily inert.

I have been in a funk for weeks and seem to be stuck in a RUT or “fallen and can’t get up”. I have been ignoring my family, household chores-including making dinners for BB.

Dear mother, I appreciate your calls asking me what I’m making for dinner. Yes, I know that you cooked dinner for daddy every day BB understands that we live in the real world. No Mom, I haven’t made any plans for my wedding yet.

WHAT ELSE is bothering me……..

My hair, now this could take an entire entry so I wont touch this issue, dirty dishes, dirty toilets, no clean undies (I have 36 pairs of thongs), nothing good to eat in the fridge, ok I did have a good supply of Klondike bars but the kids ate all but one–Gee,isn’t that nice they thought of me, falling asleep trough every episode of 24 season one disc 1-2-and 3. What the hell happened! Who got shot, who committed suicide

My future in laws came over unannounced–they do this all the time.!!! The house is dirty, Dirty DIRTY! I had to clear a pile of clothes off the couch so that his mother could sit down, in the back of my mind hoping she won’t have to go to the bathroom. I left her out of my sight for a half second and there she is sweeping the kitchen floor, Dear God, please don’t let her look behind the garbage can which is against the back wall–I’m sure something green is growing. I made more arrangements for another maid to come over since my last maid “helper” that sounds better than MAID, moved away. My new helper hasn’t come over yet.

I think she forgot about our weekly arrangement. I’m too shy to mention it. So the house remains a mess.

If she does mention it and wants to come over, is not a good thing because I will have to make some attempt to clean this house before she comes over to clean. I would hate to think that she thinks I live like a pig. –ARE YOU FOLLOLWING?

What else is eating Standing deer….

You know what I don’t really like my diary name. Could someone please give me a new name-

Favorites only diaries that won’t let me in *cough* ****. I still think she is a fabulous writer but she thinks I suck. Life goes on…I need to get over it. Zombie went favs only–he let me in so I guess that I’m even. I feel like I’m in gym class and standing on the side line when teams are being picked–I was usually last because I was so skinny.

The best thing the DairyMaster did was to defend the nerds like me and allow for private notes for acceptance to favs only diaries. I was on the edge of bordering on “groveling”. Is it really worth it –really.

I will leave this for you in full color

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IS THIS NORMAL??? everynight the big dog gets oral pleasure

EDIT: SAID diarist mentioned above just left me a note she explained why we could never be friends–I hate the fact that people who are favorites only are allowed to leave notes on your diary–