ME MYSELF AND I

FRIENDSHIP is a single soul

dwelling in two bodies

–Aristotle–

There are three classes of people at my job: the A list, the B list and the C list. The A list are the employees who hang out together after work– The summer BBQ, drunken camping trips, going for drinks after work ,Bar hopping the last get together was the 40th birthday party which was an all girl thing and included a stripper. I just might have gone to this party if I was invited just to see the naked guy. Then there is the B List which consist of of the younger girls at work who are mostly single moms struggling to pay the bills, feed their kids, work full time, these girls just don’t have the time to have a life. I don’t fit into this group of girls because the only kids I have are my dogs and my “so called kid” aka the 15 3/4 year old. I just can’t really relate to these girls. So I have placed myself in the C list. This group consist of me, myself and I.

Sadly, I really don’t have any friends –I mean TRUE girlfriends. I have been blessed to have 5 sisters, who I love dearly, but having a really good girlfriend someone to stay up all night with and girl talk, go on a road trip, shopping together, scrapbook, the list could go on and on but you know what I mean.. I was a loner growing up and very unpopular in school. I hung out with all the misfits– even the misfits went on to find better friends. I recently told my mother that I used to hide in the closet when other children from the neighborhood wanted me to come outside and play with them. I hid in the closet for hours at a time.

Now, I sit here tonight and wonder what is wrong with me. I remember reading something that said the older you get the harder it is to find true girlfriends. It was easy for me to find BB on the personal ad site just a few clicks away and bingo there he was and only 20 minutes away. Just a phone call, dinner and almost four years now we are still together. If only there could be a website called “True Girlfriend Finder”. Life would be good for me. There was a moment a truth for me last week -my one and only friend since 8 years old called me and said she would be in town for a visit. I haven’t seen her in two years. I was looking forward to the visit. Just maybe we could be come better frineds. When she came to town I soon learned that I was only alotted about 30 minutes of her time. You see she was taking a road trip to the ocean with her True best friend. This really sucks!