losing myself

I can’t even bare to look at my pictures of Nelly with out crying

Life goes on

and I feel like not wanting to move forward

but I don’t have a choice

work must go on

wedding plans still need to be made

dishes to wash

clothes to put away

I told Eddie don’t even think about rushing out to get me a puppy…

a puppy isn’t going to feel my void.

I’m escaping life right now

I’m almost done with the Davinci Code–it’s a good book to lose myself in and forget my pain for just a little while

Jesus kissed mary Magdalene on the lips

this is news to me

Jesus was married?

Opus Dei is this for real?

gawd