Back…..

and……I’m back.

Decided I missed keeping a journal. Also been feeling scattered lately. Maybe daily writing will help that.

just got back from Vacation – took my dad on a tour of every touristy site in the state of Colorado. It was pretty cool – I let Dad make up the schedule and call the shots. Pretty much he always has to do whatever Mom wants to do – – so I figured it’d be a treat if he got to do what he wanted for a change. We spent too much time in kitschy gift shops for my tastes – but we got to check out some old Anasazi ruins and climb some mountains – – so it sort of evened out.

My grandfather died in March – I’ve been kind of weird about it. Might be why I’m feeling scattered. He had close to a thousand people at his funeral – combo of a big family and being very active in his community.

It was kind of an eye-opener to think I’d probably have maybe 20 at my funeral if I died tomorrow. (I’ve got got no kids – and while I’ve got a handful of friends in this city and across the country – I just don’t have grandfather’s gift (charisma? Yeah something like that) for endearing myself to people. Plus – honestly – he was probably just a lot nicer than I am.

I started to wonder what my funeral would look like when I hit my mid-30s. That can’t be healthy.

Been doing a lot of writing lately. Even making (a little and very sporadic) money at it. I miss doing stand-up. I just don’t think I can be up till midnight or 2am working open mikes and work the next day. Also -honestly- scared to get back on stage.  But I miss the rush from a good set.

more later….