this weekend event

My cousin is getting married this weekend…tomorrow to be exact. My sister and mom are working and my dad is off fishing. So I will be attending alone and I’m good with that because what’s been on my mind more than my cousin wedding is that it will be a perfect time probably the only time to go to Mike grave site. I don’t know maybe because both the anniversary of his death and his birthday was recently that I feel to do it but I figure my mom deciding to work tomorrow instead of coming with me to the wedding is a sign that I should go to his grave site. I’m not 100% sure if I will actually go even though I want to but then part of me is like I don’t need to because I talk to his spirit everyday besides he didn’t want me at his funeral of obvious reasons so he doesn’t deserve my presence at his grave site (fyi: I don’t know if I ever mentioned before but according to my mom he came to her and told her for me not to go to the funeral which I torn whether or not to go…but in the end I didn’t go because I didn’t want to cause any trouble with the family). So come tomorrow I probably won’t decide what to do till the last minute I just have to see how things flow and how I feel then go from there. Well got to go finish pre-wedding prepping for tomorrow.

Have a good night