Friends how many of us have them…

I don’t know who has friends or a friend that they trust with their life, that they could tell anything to, that will always be there, and have their back no matter what…I do not. I don’t have that I don’t know maybe because I don’t trust completely or you know yeah I don’t trust completely. Shoot even with Mike in a way I trusted him but I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop and he knew that because I told him straight up which it eventually did after the fact. Then there is my closest friend, we don’t live close. I told him some stuff but not everything because one time I told him something and exaggerated a story and he told a couple people and that’s how I know I can’t trust him with top secret stuff but anyways we hardly talked now. I still try to call him at least once a month but yeah there’s a disconnect there and it’s like tick tock tick tock till we get off the phone. We have nothing to talk about anymore so there’s not really a connection but to me he’s still my friend even though we don’t talk much. Society now is all about texting but talking to a friend over the phone is nice because he kinda is the only real high school friend I have, everyone else are associates. Yeah I have work friends but we hardly ever hang out. Anyways it would be nice to have a friend like that and to you guys out there that do have good for you.