strange day

heard from brian today.  he wants to come over tomorrow after work, yay!  kevin tried to guilt trip me.  i’m working out with derrick on fri and then going for drinks with him afterwards at the bar where brian works lol.  i really hope brian and i can have a good chat tomorrow and maybe i can convince him to be in my life, as something more.  lol.  wish me luck on that! 

i hate being single around the holidays 🙁  megan is single now too, so at least i have someone to go out with and pick up guys with!  we are going to watch football tonight.  i’m gonna look cute and see if i can do some flirting!  i need to get kevin out of my head.  i also need to keep telling myself that he is not what i ultimately want in a husband.  its too bad that he is a nice guy when we hang out.  i want someone who has time for me.  must remind myself of this!