pity party

throwing myself a pity party tonight.  so upset over not seeing kevin for over 2 weeks and from not hearing much from him the last few days.  i really feel like he met someone else.  i know he is busy and has the kids and everything but he used to be more communicative.  i might do the "wait for him to text/contact me first" thing again and see what happens.  i’m trying to stay positive and think positive, but i don’t want to make excuses.

i worked on my vision board.  finally got a lot of words glued on.  i need more pictures to glue on there.  and another poster board lol.  it made me feel a little better to know that i’m putting my dreams into action.  i am going to try to write more in my gratitude journal.  i need to remember that i have a pretty great life and there are others out there that are struggling more than me and that i have a lot to be thankful for. 

i just hate this feeling.  i wish i could just see into the future and see what the universe has planned for me.  i know what i want, but if i could align it with what the universe will provide me, i could reach my goals and dreams much faster.

i guess this is another lesson in patience.