his issues

since our first date, i have known about kevin’s issues.  well, most of them since even before our first date.  here they are:

1.  his ex cheated on him with a bartender and her ex-husband
2.  she made him feel inadequate about his size–he asked why and what was different about the other guy (not sure if it was the bartender or her ex) and she told him that the guy was huge
3.  she lied to him about lots of stuff
4.  she stole over 30k from their retirement accounts without telling him.  he found out when he did the taxes one year. 
5. her own mother told him that she has been a liar all of her life
6.  she refuses to compromise on custody of the kids
7.  she is ruining his credit by not paying the mortgage on the house, forcing it to go into foreclosure

i’m sure there are more that haven’t even been brought to light yet.

so, as you can see, he has a lot of reasons to be hurt and have trust issues.  he listed 3 ways that i am like her.  the only one i remember is that i had a one night stand with a bartender (which, it wasn’t a one night stand, but i didn’t know what to say when he asked me…i lied too, i know).  OH and the other was this:  one night, laying in bed, he asked me if i’ve ever been so horny that that just wanted to fuck a really big dick.  i had NO idea what or why he was asking, so i said yes.  then he told me about his ex and what she said about the guy she cheated with.  i tried to point out that i never acted on it and that i just don’t go out looking for guys to fuck, but he, of course, didn’t believe me.  and, i can’t remember the 3rd way i’m like her. 

i can understand how its hard for him to trust.  i was in a relationship where i found out my boyfriend was trying to cheat on me.  and i have found out that, after the bad mike and i broke up, he cheated on me.  so, i know the feeling.  and i wouldn’t cheat on someone i’m in a relationship with.  i know how it hurts. 

i know it will take time for him to trust me.  i know i need to be patient.   and, if this is meant to be, the universe will provide me with all the resources i need to get thru these trying times.  i just need to trust and believe.