09/27/2009 *halloween care pack pics

• Yay for two days off!
• Three weeks until my maternity leave starts. Yessss.
• I’m thoroughly enjoying spicy salsa & chips right now, which I know I’ll regret later when I have killer heartburn.
• It’ll be interesting to see how much I’ve grown in the last two weeks when I take belly pics on Monday. I’ve gained 5 lbs, and I feel huge.
• I got my birth supplies in the mail from In His Hands a couple days ago. This weekend my goal is to get my bedroom completely cleaned up & birthing ready. I’ve got all of Mason’s clothes washed & put away. I have to put a cover over my mattress. And compile all my birth supplies into one easily accessible spot.
• I need to catch up on house work today, too. Boo.
• Josh’s mom called me this morning and asked if she could come over with her husband and make a list of home improvements that need to get done so they can do them for me. Josh left a few unfinished projects, and there’s some things that really should get done before winter comes. I feel horrible accepting more help from them, but they do need to get done and I do need help with them. I’m so very lucky to have such a wonderful relationship with his family. They really are all I have right now. And Larry is a master carpentar, so who better to help me out?
• My momma is booking my flights for Glendale, AZ today. I’ll be there from November 5th – 27th. =D
• I finished one of Josh’s Halloween carepacks last night. I made 20 goodie bags of candy for him and his buddies. And the other package I’m going to bake halloween theme shaped cookies (not sure what kind yet.. probably sugar w/ halloween sprinkles), silly string, masks, glow sticks, more candy and other silly halloween-y type things. I won’t be sending these until the middle of October, but I want to do up a "Congratulations, Daddy" carepackage. So when Mason does arrive, I just have to print out a bunch of pictures and throw in some last minute things, and send it off right away.

*This was the first time I painted a box. I really like the way it turned out. I got the stickers and goodie bags from the $1 aisle at Target.

Nearly everyone makes comments about how it’s so "nice" of me to send these things to him. It’s a huge coping method for me. And it’s one of the only ways I feel "comfortable" expressing my feelings towards him right now. I’m still very scared and hesitant to open myself back up completely to Josh. But with these carepacks, I can show him that I do still think about him and I am still here – just hesitant right now. Atleast, that’s what I hope he takes from it. And instead of worrying non stop about all the action that’s going on over there right now (from what he’s told me, it’s really heated), I can put my focus on something else that’s positive. And something that may be the only thing that brings a smile to his face that day.