Just Some Thoughts From Earlier in the Day

Sitting alone on a warm but windy day

I see the beauty that this world has

The sun shining down making the water glisten

The grass and the tress being blown oh so elegantly by the wind

Birds are chirping and grasshoppers are hopping

It makes me wonder why I can’t be as beautiful or happy as things in nature are

Why am I the one to always be sad

The one that has to wear a mask

Smiling around others, but crying when alone

Thinking thoughts that I know are bad

And wondering why no one can see

All the hurt I have inside

Are they blind or do they just not care?

I wish I had magic so I could just disappear

I feel like the saying someone told me once before

I’m tired of trying, I’m tired of crying, I know I’ve been smiling, but inside I’m dying