I Think I May Have Postpartum Depression…

I had my daughter right before Thanksgiving, but I think I may start to be getting Postpartum Depression or something. I’m having trouble sleeping, my appetite isn’t that good, I feel worthless and crappy about myself, I have like no energy to do anything and every day it seems like I try so hard just to get by, I cry a lot for no reason (or I suppose there could be a reason I just don’t know what that is), I feel guilty a lot too in general though not about anything specific and etc. Sometimes I feel like I want to shoot myself or something so all these bad feelings go away. I’ve felt like this before, like off and on throughout my life, but now it’s like worse or something. Everything just feels ten times stronger than it has in the past. Like when I feel sad I feel really really sad and when I cry, I cry for hours before stopping. I kind of have thoughts of suicide every now and then too and I wish I didn’t. I don’t know what to do though because I don’t have money to see a doctor and then get prescribed pills or something and I definately don’t have enough money to see a therapist. I’m struggling to make enough to take care of myself and my daughter. Life just seems so unfair sometimes, although in my case a lot of the time.