Giving Up

Well, I’ve decided I’m giving up on my guy friend and the guy I liked. It’s sad because I’ve known both of them for awhile now, but they don’t really seem to care. My friend is being a really crappy friend (talked about in past two entries) and the guy that I thought I was dating hasn’t really talked to me either. I usually always call or text him, but I haven’t for the past 2 weeks, but he hasn’t tried calling or texting to see why. I just got tired of always being the one who had to initiate a conversation or an invite to do something. I guess we never really did anything anyways besides hang out at his place. Even when I did call or text the last week that I had called or text him, he was too busy or something. He just didn’t seem like he really wanted to be around me which was strange because he’s the one that kept saying I was his girl and he didn’t want me seeing anyone else. Oh well. As for my friend I also quit calling and texting him and he did call one day. My sister said he wanted to talk to me. Really he wanted to talk to my brother and only talked to me because he wasn’t home. Once again I had to ask if he wanted to hang out. I didn’t realize at first that the only reason he talked to me was because my brother wasn’t home which is why I asked if he wanted to hang out. Then he pretty much stood me up to play a game with his brothers and girlfriend. I figured that if he was always too busy for me when I did call or text and if he didn’t bother calling or texting me the month I didn’t try calling or texting him and then he stands me up to play a card game, then I guess our friendship didn’t really mean that much to him. I feel like such an idiot because i always try to put a lot of effort into making time for my friends, even when i’m dating someone, and being there for them when they need me, but i always end up getting screwed over. I always get screwed over by the guys i date too and I’ve dated different types of guys so maybe it’s just me. I’m getting so tired of thinking people like me or are my friends when really they don’t or they’re not. I’ve pretty much been screwed over by every person i’ve ever trusted and it really inhales vigorously. I just don’t know what to do anymore.