Tomorrow I’ll stop procrastinating

Writing on a regular basis has been more difficult than I thought it would be, and OpenDiary not being co-operative doesn’t help it either, but I’m trying. The last few days there have been a few things I’ve been dying to try out and also the last few months I have this disease called procrastination. I could think of more than 100 things I want to do, or want to learn and I still.haven’t.done.it. It bugs me really hard so I am trying as much as possible to just DO it. I think that’s my problem, I was born as a thinker, it’s what I do. I think of things that still have to be done, but eventually I only do half of it. That’s pretty much our family disease as well. Literally almost everyone of my family copes with that, one more than the other. The ultimate thing that I would really want to learn right now, is to make my own clothes. It’s been stuck in my head for the last couple months and my mom finally brought in our sewing machine to fix it, and since yesterday it’s back at home. I want to start on it, but I don’t know how to do it. I got a very large book for Christmas with all help to learn to sew on your own, but maybe I’ll take sewing classes if I find out the book only doesn’t help. That is my number one priority: learn to make clothes. And after that comes all the random daily tasks that still ought to be done, like finishing my photo-album, or cleaning my room (since my exams before the holidays it’s been a total mess, like crazy), or go jogging more regularly because right now it’s too variable. Stuff like that anyways, you could say it’s really not that important to stress over it (not that I really do but it just bothers me) but I have been walking around with these unfinished ‘tasks’ and passions/dreams not being fulfilled and I might be young but that time will be over before I know it and I have to do it now before it’s too late, before I have a job, kids and so on and I don’t want to come to the realisation that it’s too late to do all of that. Now, one cause of my procrastination could be that I am always living for the weekend. Just ‘surviving’ the week (a little overreacted, but still true) and when it’s weekend, try to do all of it at once and that never works ofcourse, so I end up doing nothing. Yes, school can be exhausting, I have to get up early, but if I want to achieve something in my life, I will have to work hard for it and working hard does certainly not mean only working when you feel like it. So I am going to push myself to do these things so that I can finally apply some added value to my life like the sewing, my piano playing is already going on for a year (whitch I am very happy with) and I want to start painting as well. And yes, that shows I am very much into creativity and expression. Also, I want to reinforce my famiIybands and stay close to my friends, I am not a loner, I can’t live without others. So now you know that about me as well 😉 I will keep you up to date to my anti-procrastination program!