My heart from within

 It’s over
We’re done.
A hard time is coming now
And I am supposed to be able to deal with it all.
But guess what.
I’m only some young human being
Wandering and trying to find my place somewhere
I’m not like the rest
I don’t pick my lovers just because I need someone to love
I am picky
And you were perfect to me
You were the straw to my berry
The apple of my eye
You were the one I felt best with
Made me feel like I was the best in the world
before all that stupid stuff happend
And I just don’t want to let go of it yet
I don’t want us to be just a memory
because I still love you
I love you so much 
More and more every minute
I miss you so much
More and more every second
Nobody understands
But I don’t judge them
People my age are mostly not that serious
And they think I’m like them
"Writing a stupid entry about someone stupid she’ll forget in a few weeks, months…", they think
But I can assure you it’s not the case
I won’t forget you even after years
I’ll never will I can feel it
I am angry and sad and I want to talk
But I can’t find my words
Nobody understands
But who am I to judge.