Too picky?

  Maybe I’m a little picky… too picky…. I turn down a good amount of guys. Why? I just feel like I have a firm grasp on what I need in a guy, and I wont just settle. Because yeah, you wont be alone, but what if you’re not alone and then this amazing person comes walking into your life, but you’re already in a relationship you settled for?

   I bring this up because a friend of mine, her ex, is the latest to be… well… interested. Now, I told him I dont date f riends ex’s even though me and her kinda seized to be friends for awhile now. But he says  everyone is saying we’d be good together. I dont agree. I think he’s far too childish. But, I would be willing to be his friends. So I told him so. I said I’d be his friend and he’s anticipating going further, to which, I dont see…
  
    Ugh. Maybe I’m ridiculous. Like Chris. He’s amazing, he truly is. But the chemitry, connection just isn’t there in the way that needs to be. Whoever gets him is soooooooooo lucky. Adam. Well, he’s … he drinks a lot now and says kinda perverted things anymore. He isn’t my Adam anymore… really… Anthony was an ass, plain and simple…. and that I couldn’t tolerate anymore so I threw him outta my life. And I’m glad I did.

     I’ve become really good friends with Lauren and Liz, and its been such a blast. It’s really been the friendships that I needed all along that keep me spirited and myself, for once. And i love how I can share my intense love for Supernatural with them, and they love it just as much (rubbing in their faces I met those two gorgeous and yes, down to earth and cool guys…) is a perk…. 😛

   Now, I’m just waiting on Spring Break to be over, and go on my audition finally for the acting scholarship and just continually pursue it. And continually pursue to be happy. Because though I feel I’m getting close to happiness (with no happy pills) I’m not there yet… Will though!

     Co workers invited me out tonite to Orlando’s/ Lauren had BAD experiences there. I hate those clubs. Creepy guys all up on ya, its gross. I’d rather do like… anything else lol. But Sam isn’t going, and I was really only considering it if Sam was going. I bet no one but Kay, Rachel and Angela show. I hope they have fun, all the same.

     My mom says she’s moving back up here at years end since well my uncles aren’t doing their job and she feels the need to come up here and take care of things. Personally, I think that is the wise decision. My stepdad coming up every other weekend will get old fast, so i dont know what will happen there.
 
    Caroline made my day today. Really. I love kids, and that surprises me actually. She was upset I had to leave and go to another room and insisted on a hug before I left and she clutched onto me and gave me tons of her tiny kisses on my cheek. Kids, while they can stress me out and make me wanna pull my hair and thrust my head into a wall, I very much love them. One day (probably years and years away lol) I cant wait for my own… 🙂
 
    I am soooo tired and im leaving out a lot of things that happened since i wrote last… but for the life of me i cant remember what! Besides kickin my butt getting into shape and actually feeling like i was getting somewhere…. lol.

    OH! Things so far seem to be moving along as far as making my movie is concerned. Really only waiting on Mel. As usual. I hope she comes through.