Pres Obama, FIX THIS ECONOMY!
Dear Mr. President- Do what you said you were going to do!
I am not a patient person, and I know things take time, but this economy is killing EVERYONE. Well, except the rich. The rich ALWAYS get richer. And you know how we got in this mess? The fucking GREEDY. The greedy will be the downfall of us. Not just America. ALL OF US. Read The Fountainhead…
My parents have simply given up. Yes, its their fault for moving to Louisiana on a whim… both leaving perfectly good jobs, WELL PAYING jobs, to get away from my stepdad’s boss and mostly, my brother… but now they’re faced with the fact that they ruined their finally perfect credit… losing their house… and losing their (and our) beloved dogs… and turns our my scholarship is not that much at all. SUPER.
Since my parents have given up on finding jobs up here (I guess 1 rejection letter for my stepdad and two for my mom qualifies as a give up sign…) That means they are forfeiting the house. And with that, the dogs. Now, if you’re not dog or animal people, this will make virtually no sense to you. This is the longest we’ve kept a pet, and we love them like family. And it breaks my heart looking at them now knowing that by Tuesday, either way, they’ll be gone. My elderly friend Sharon said her and her son would come look at them today. I haven’t called yet… I just cant handle it. Friends or not… i dont know him.
I went to my school, and now i know it better, and i have my duplex and everything, and martha is going to help me find a job… now im stressing (but yes, I was briefly euphoric about getting excited about them wanting to cast me already…) but here’s the thing: how am I going to find a flexible job where I can make ends meat without living paycheck to paycheck,whilst being able to do every play (its in my acting scholarship contract… i have to at least help out in some w ay) And turns out the money is only 1700/year. REALLY? Basically they are only paying for my theatre classes….. YAY
So now I’ve got to take that much more out of student loans, loans which I’d hoped to take out only a few grand for living expenses… Yeah, now I’ve got to use a lot more than anticipated…. I really need to succeed now….
So we’re back to this stinkin economy, where once the classified section filled up a few pages, now has 2 columns, at best.
At least book rentals shouldn’t be nearly as bad as they were at maple woods- which ironically, were sky high. But there’s still getting myself into that math class which I put off of course… and there’s getting ready to go to a whole new school. Not just college. but i mean university… its starting over all over again.. making whole new friends.. and while that is exciting, its also stressful… its feeling alone at first and p raying you bust out of your shell and really take advantage of what you have.
When I stop to take stock on my life, and the decisions I’ve made and where I’m at now, I ask myself "Why are you taking such a hard road? Such a difficult career? Such a competitive one?" And I will look to say, my co worker Debbie and think how tomorrow will just be another day for her… but you know what? Though she doesn’t have big obstacles coming up, she doesn’t have anything to look forward to either. Its the mundane. Its normalicy. And when I try to think of other routes, of other careers… It just doesnt work
Because when I think of acting, I see endless possibilities. I can see myself there, doing it. I can see a rough road, a tough road. But i know after all I’ve been through I’ve got the strength to endure it and I know I have it. And its confidence that peeks around when I least expect it and tells me to push forward, to push myself to do the hard stuff. To realize the signs are real, and the things that fall into place… its like in The Power of The ACtor, when you’ve got a million choices for a substitute or inner object, you play them all out in your head or at rehearsal… the wrong choices will fade away easily… but the RIGHT choice, you’ll know instantly; it’ll stick there and the endless possibilites will abound…
That’s just a theory… of course… 😛