Are you there God? Its me, Michelle D.

Well, I have been neglecting open diary for years now, but truth is, its the only place I can really express everything because all of my friends, not online, know nothing about this diary online. And why do I share it? Maybe because its nice to get the opinion of totally unbiased people. Its like having a bunch of shrinks.

    PS- The title to this entry is from a eppy title from Supernatural. Just FYI. lol And that show has been nothing less than amazing this season. It had a bit of slack to take up for for last season (can anyone say Bella?) But its brought Angels and God in FINALLY. Its been VERY interesting. Though its super annoying when atheists get all in a tizzy about it. A. if you’re atheist and  you dont believe in life after death, then why are you watching this show? And just for entertainment purposes, why not allow the GOOD side in? Why is everything "good" "Cheesy"? And what difference does it make- the Bible is HISTORY. No matter if you think its fact or fiction… Ugh. i wont go into that argument right now…..lol

   Anyway, been going to school back at maple woods. It sucks. i hate it. I’m not doing too well in biology, but surprisingly im doing pretty well in math. Shoker. I made a friend in bio named Jeanette, and we’ve become really good friends since. She even got me a job at a daycare!

    My mom thinks, for some reason, im not a kid person. Which, i guess that assumption is well, not well founded but okay. But i do love kids, the young kids anyways lol. Between 11 and meh… 20… kids are a pain in the ass, and those years WONT be fun. but before and after should be fine… anyways, i love it. And i get nights and weekends off 🙂

   My friend Martha is going to school at southern mo state, or eastern i forgot, anyways, Brad Pitt and John Goodman went there, and she’s notified me that there’s going to be quite a few acting scholarships available for the fall. So, I’m jumping on that, and hopefully it all works out for me. keep your fingers crossed! And of course, i’ve been working out, so once im in killer shape, i’ll go in and audition for an agent, and hopefully get my butt up to Canada for the BEST show in the world….

   I dont talk all that much with Mel these days. She’s a monk, a hermit, whatever word you’d like to use, but mostly she’s just odd. I dont know what her deal is. I talk to her VERY RARELY. I’d like to call her my best friend b/c well she doesn’t think i’m weird, and she gets me WAY more than my other friends, yet she’s so distant I mean VERY distant. I guess I dont get her, so its like hmmm.

   Boy front…. well, that’s been very…. sad. lol. Travis, this guy in one of my classes is not too bad looking but i found out how old he is, and im almost 22, and he’s almost 19. I dont like that. Cougars kinda scare me, to be honest… anyway. its pretty bare and i expect it mostly will stay that way. I’m better off on my own right now. Though, that doesn’t mean im not up for some fun. always am!