Always up to me

Can I just say i HATE how I am always the one to make all the decisions? Most of my friends are not bad about this, but why is it that I am always named leader, and I am always the one to chose things?

   But with Mel its REALLY bad like I chose EVERYTHING. "Its up to you" is her most common phrase. I cant chose EVERYTHING. It really annoys me. Really bady. I wish she would grow some backbone….."Are you bored, or something?" um. YEAH! I have repeatidly said "Lets go somewhere" Or "I get bored easy i hate staying in the house." But its like you chose something! For one thing, you’ve lived in this area awhile, i have not!!!!

   sorry, that’s quite childish, but its just all this stress i have about school, finding a job here, not feeling like im sponging off peope plus theres "Okay what were your plans for us today?" Or whatever….. I need to be able to go with the flow, at least sometimes. jeeeeeeeeeeeez