04/20/2009

 Patience is not something I have, but its something I’m working on, particularly now… I’m waiting to hear back whether I got the acting scholarship or not. It will determine which pathway I follow down. I’m leaving it up to the fates. Either way, I plan on getting there, it just depends on which route. Because I feel completely stuck where I’m at now. In limbo. And im bored, and its driving me insane,

    All the little boys at work were giving me dandelions wanting me to be their girlfriend. They are the cutest things. aiden is the cutest and sweetest. I hope one day (long time from now! ) looks lke  him or Joseph. so cute.

   Does anyone know how to eat super healthy? and how to cook it? I look at these healthy recipe books and it just looks disgusting. No way eating good could be that gross. I have a really bad sweet tooth. Gets me in trouble sometimes!

    I worked ten hours today with one 15 min break (cuz i pushed for it) and a 30 min break. At Marshalls for that kind of shift I’d have a 45 min lunch break and two 15’s. Oh well.

     Since the last few months have been focused on acting, I’ve been trying to write some more. I feel like I’ve been neglecting it. But of course I haven’t felt very inspired for anything, and thats what usually holds me back. I’ve been so distracted with so many things, its hard to concentrate, let alone squeeze out the artisitic juices. I have ideas.
 
     This economy is really bad, and its really got me worried. My mom actually cant find a job, either here or Louisiana. Its got me worried. At least though only a few kids were pulled due to dads losing jobs, but Hayley’s dad found a job, so there’s one thats staying thats good at least! 
 
      But either way, I cant stay at my daycare job, it doesnt pay enough. Because either I’ll be moving to joplin (where i pray i find another job that can support me living on my own) or i have to move out anyways (my stepdad said its time i move out on my own again. bla. suck it, have you seen this economy marky?)

     Wow, i really have nothing new going on lately! Supernatural is brand spankin new next week and im excited for that. Castings for their LAST season should be in july. Ha. I dont even have my passport yet. Such a pain

   Oh met a cute guy today…. thats all I’ll say about that 😛