Things just keep on annoying me

So today my plan was to talk to S, chill for a bit, and finish up some homework that’s due tonight. I forgot, I was on call. I was hoping I wouldn’t be needed. Well they made me come in anyway, even tho technically they didn’t need me. So they told me to come in soon as I could, since coming in 15 mins after the call just wasn’t gonna happen. I had to dry my pants as i had just washed them, then factor in the time to get there. Thankfully I had already taken my shower. So I told them I can’t work too late as I had homework due, so they told me  I could leave at 5. Well, while the day sucked and I was pissed to be there, finally time came to go home. I had to wait damn near an hour for my bf to get there because he was trying to give his son a jump on his car. On the way home, traffic was backed up everywhere. It’s Friday, people are out, so more traffic. Then we get in a lane that had an accident and had to crawl our way past to finally get to a clear lane. On the way home I find S has found a part time second job, so that means I”ll see even less of him. I get why, and plus he has to pay his father back for helping us this month, with the ridiculously high rent due to it being month to month. We were supposed to talk two days ago, but he keeps falling asleep. So I dunno, but whatever happens with us, I will have a back up plan in place. I’m so confused, sometimes he acts like he still wants me to stick around, but sometimes it just seems that he’s used to me being there. So just in case, I will be saving up what I can, especially once I get that damn school refund, that way if I have to leave I can, and have somewhat of a cushion to get me through until I find a new full time job. I find that at work certain people get the hours and shifts I’ve wanted, and I’m not supposed to notice or say anything. The people that are getting these, are people that came in after me, and are a management fave. I’m not, I have too much of an attitude. I can work the shifts that other folks are getting, they just won’t give them to me. If they do, it’s a cashier shift and not a customer service shift. They hardly ever give me the morning ones. I”m so sick of the bullshit, and I get it thrown in my face every time I go to work. I can’t trust anyone, and i feel alone  there too. So now I must take my mind off how boring and depressing my life is, and do this homework that’s due tonight. I got off at 5, but I didn’t get home til after 6. UGH I wish I had my own car, no one gives a shit when YOU’RE the one waiting for the ride. Let it be them, and they are so shitty.