So my prosebox

I am debating on deleting it. I said I’d never, and I have some “memories” there but I don’t go to it nearly as much as I used to. I’ve slowly migrated over to here. I dunno I may keep it, just cause but not even my faves update, except one who I rarely read cause her topics are all the same and overly frequent (I’m trying not to be that way here, hence a different topic tonight, than the past few entries lol). I created that diary when this one went downhill years ago, and it wasn’t the same, but i made it a new home. I had to have some place to write my frustrations out. I swore I’d never do OD when it came back, but here I am writing and shit. To be honest, the atmosphere over here seems a bit more nice. While this time we have to pay, at least it an affordable amount, and there’s a better chance of being read or having something decent to read. I dunno, we’ll see. I haven’t written there in months, and I just checked and only thing there is maybe two faves, one of which mentioned above, and posts from the DM. Anyway, I’ve grown to like this community. The look and feel is not quite the same as before, but I feel more “at home” here, so I’ll probably stay until the end of time haha.

I am so tempted to take my hair down tonight. It’s supposed to last two weeks, but it’s getting fuzzy, plus it starts to itch after a while. I could wash it, but it’s not as thorough as when it’s down. I like the braids, but two week mark is usually as far as I can go before I’m ready to take this shit down. I will get it done again, but like before I’ll take a two week break before I do. I have to see how I want it, I think I know, but I’ll look up more styles. I’m at the week and a half mark, this coming Wednesday will be two full weeks. I think I’ll get it braided one more time, before I look into styles where my hair is down lol and braid free. I just like not having to do my hair everyday. It keeps me from my usual ponytail, lol.

Work today wasn’t bad, it was just long as hell. I hate how they do things there, and how unfair things are. I hate how I feel isolated, even tho I don’t join cliques at this store. There is no one there I can trust, and I really wish I could find a new place to work soon. I’m trying to remain grateful, but to be honest, it is just not enough. They run the good folks off, and reward the ass kissers. I know they talk about me behind my back. It’s like I am still in high school. If it wasn’t for the fact that I needed my job, I’d tell them all what I thought of them lol. I had to take the shift today (which was offered to me a couple days ago) because of how many hours they gave me for the week. Wanna know what that was? Come on guess! Ha yeah these fools gave me 11.50 hours, the .50 is the on call day they had me scheduled for. I didn’t end up going that day, so 11 hours. I picked up a shift this past Thursday because miss crazy chick at work wanted the day off to go to the fair. So that put me at like 17 hours, then I got asked to work 2-10 today, at least my check will be somewhat more decent than what it would have been if I had only worked the 11 hrs.The next few weeks I have 20 hours…ooooh.🙄🙄 It’s ridiculous how they expect someone to live off that, and not even give them full time. So yeah, I really pray this hospital contacts me soon. I will still call the temp agency tomorrow though.