So it’s done

I quit my job, unless they think i’m not coming in just  for today, but i’m not so technically I quit. I stressed about this all night (with little help from S) and while i need a job, i just can’t stomach another day there. I might as well just go back to my last store i worked for, at least I knew what I was getting. I left because there is no full time, pay sucks, and no benefits. I thought my recently former job would be better. The pay was better, gained 75 pay raise from when i started there (which aint much). I THOUGHT I’d get full time there, and actually be in customer service. No, I get bullshit and lies, two faced snitch bitches, and more stress than one person can handle. I don’t even have the energy to give a detailed entry, but basically they keep treating me like I’m stupid, they don’t like when I ask questions bout stuff they tack on to our duties, they don’t like when I get upset about it, and they go back and tell folks everything i say, do  and complain about. Like yesterday, this asst store manager decided he wanted us to clean parts of the store, i didnt’ feel I should have to. Anyway, what pissed me off is how they did the list. It was split up into 3 sections (15 tasks in all, split up 3 ways). while everyone else’s list had their name next to it, mine was circled and highlighted with a special message to do this while i run self check. I asked her why she did it this way, for MY name and she said she wanted me to be sure I knew I didn’t have to do all 15. So now i’m stupid and can’t read? It’s shit like that, and lies.

I can’t get full time, I’m being flushed out of CS or so it feels, cause they always have me running a register or self check out more than I”m behind the desk. Everyone who gets trained in CS gets better training than I did, and i feel like they use me. I still don’t have benefits there, so I had to get affordable health care, which is better than nothing. I got lucky with my monthly payments there. I found myself stressing just at the thought of going in, no one there is trustworthy, and they work the dog shit out of you for chump change. The girl I mentioned earlier has this friend that also works there in CS, and anytime I complain she runs to her friend to tell  on me. If I talk shit, she snitches, if I make a comment, she snitches. Later, she’ll try to laugh and joke with me and wonder why I ignore her. Now I thought I left high school 21 years ago, apparently not. Some people NEVER mature. Now I don’t like to quit without notice, and normally I do leave a written notice no matter how craptastic the job, but I seriously could not stomach going in today. Especially when I know that if I do, I’ll have to speak with a manager (again) about my “attitude”) because I saw the bitch griping to her friend, after she went back and told her what I complained about (again) and later she goes into the managers office with the asst manager. So I KNOW they planned a meeting for me. Especially when this lady I work with (who is the mother of this bitch) told me they pulled her into the office, after they saw her talking to me, asking her what I talked to her about, and asking if i talked shit about her daughter to her or about anyone else. Not sure who heard, other than the loss prevention guy, tho i think he told, but they were trying to get info out of her against me. I’m not supposed to know this, and i don’t wanna get her in trouble, because I actually like her. S used to work with her when he worked at this store in the Deli dept. She told them I didn’t talk bad about anyone, and that I only complained about being made to look stupid, which she agreed was a legit complaint.

I don’t trust anyone else there, and i was so down i couldn’t fathom coming in today. I don’t think I’ll ever go back there, not sure if they will terminate me for not showing up today, or consider me a no call no show, or just flat quit, but whatever the case is, I”m NOT going back there. I literally cannot deal with that place anymore. So now i’m putting in all sort of job apps, I plan to find something soon, and hopefully better than this place.