Just a ramble

Good afternoon folks. I see color choices in fonts, I like, I like! Purple is my fave color, after all haha. I’m off work today, not really much planned. Having to hold tight to what’s left of my state refund (finally got it, and fed is already gone…dammit lol) and my next paycheck for this trip next weekend. It’ll be nice to see mom and sis again, it’s been two years. Sometimes I wish I could stay longer than the one day I’ll have to see them, like permanetly, but I like it here in NC. I love my bf, but the doubts are no joke here. Do I really wanna spend the rest of my life with a liar, or a man who’s lied so much in the past (stupid ass lies too). He’s not perfect, and he has the potential to be so much better. He just has to see the error of his ways. A relationship can’t work with lies, deciept, or anything else relacted to that. I want the intimacy back, romance, and all around trust I had in the beginning. This is something we will have to talk about, and soon!

I am just now finishing this entry. I started it hours ago, but then S came home from work and I closed up the website lol. He’s sleep and I’m bored so here I am to finish lol. As you can see I’m fooling around with the color choices. Seems every time I come back here, something new has been added. So I’m not upset about upgrading to a paid diary. I was against the idea at first, cause I liked the option of not having to pay. Then I was like, but when it was free I still paid to avoid ads, so what’s the big deal. It’s really only a dollar (per month)  more than it was then. If I remember correctly lmao. 

So in a week I’ll be giving up having the house to myself on my days off lol. I’ll be giving up being able to walk around the house naked. We are heading down to Indy to pick up S’s son to move him back here. He was living here when I was living in Indy and moved back to Indy when I moved here. Now after 2 years he wants to come back lol. He’s like 22 years old, so that means dealing with two grown ass men. 🙄. I am looking forward to seeing my mom and sis. I haven’t seen them since I moved here. I’m hoping to go back in June to see my sis graduate from art school (she did photography). I really hope to find a new job soon, tired of being broke AF. So far 2018 isn’t so nice to me lol. 

I think his son is better off here. His mom there is a poor excuse for a mother. And her mother ain’t much better. I’ll just be glad when we can move. It’s barely enough room for 2 people, let alone 3. I’ve never lived with his son, but I’ve hung around him plenty of times. We get along. We’ll see how it goes haha. The cooking won’t change. It’s me and S. Apparently his son doesn’t cook. He sure needs to learn but maybe with time, lol. I’m sure he’ll get his own place eventually, but I don’t think it’ll be any issues. Sucks being the only female in the house lmao. Even be dog is male. I’m out numbered lmao. Anyway gonna enjoy the rest of this day off. It’s been nice!